Seems like yesterday that we said our goodbyes, when you walked away and never looked back….I didn’t realize it then, that you still had my heart in your hands
I still haven’t found the right words to say back to her. I still haven’t determined what exactly drifted us apart. I read that text over and over again and wonder how my life would have been if I had simply been bold enough to say yes.
Eight years on and I still can’t tell her exactly what happened, how I really felt about her. Every message I have sent in between then and now does not seem to convey all I have to say…maybe saying it in a text doesn’t work for me so tonight I will try this:
It doesn’t surprise me that you believe I have your heart in my hands because you have mine with you too…I carry you in my spirit. I pray for your happiness more than I do mine…I ask God everyday to keep you safe and return you safely to me because I truly believe we were meant to be. I believe so because no two people can survive what we did without being bonded for life.
Remember what you told me the night we decided to go our separate ways: “Que sera, sera.”..? I’m counting on those words being true….I miss you every day.
Too many songs are “our songs” and too many places hold fond memories. In every woman, I wait and hope to see that smile we shared, that laughter that warmed the very soles of my feet.
I am often caught smiling to myself because I remembered something you said randomly….
In the words of Mariah Carey, “I still believe someday you and me will find ourselves in love again”…
This is what I would say to you if I could…but….
You’ll never see this though…because I saw that smile you gave him last night….that smile used to be reserved for me….
I saw the way you held his hand, how many times that touch had caressed me…
Then you kissed him and I knew all was lost…….
I’m happy you found someone who makes you feel the way I used to make you feel because like you said : “Que sera,sera” I wish you every happiness…but I am only human and so I still believe….
