The past few months or even perhaps a year has not come easy to me at all and though much of the problem has little to do with finances, I have struggled to find my bearings.
In a world filled with several opportunities and many options, one would think making a choice should not be a daunting task. After all, if you realise that your first choice is not what you contemplated, you simply but have to change.
Now if only this philosophy applied to life changing decisions like; what career path should I take? Should I start my own business as against furthering my education through a Masters degree or even whom should I marry or choose to fall in love with?
These are not options that you can change once you make the choice; they come with life altering repercussions.
Well, this has been my dilemma for some time now as I have increasingly become obsessed with making the right choices. You see, due to the absence of a father or father-figure in my life, I have become the type of chap that lives on maxims and mottos as my guiding principles to life. Hence, my recent adage; “Failure is the result of a series of bad choices” has just compounded my current predicament.
Last Night, I almost got electrocuted trying to fix a faulty wall socket...My God, kudos to our electricians who do this thing on a daily basis. In my quest to perfect my electrical engineering skills, I had to refresh my memory on how to wire an electric plug.
After 20 minutes of an online refresher course and successfully replacing the fuse in my socket, it all suddenly became crystal clear.
Life is like an electrical plug, where we are born with the two default wires needed to function; the live and neutral wires. These wires are what bring the life in you; they are arguably your spirit.
It is what drives you to become who you are, it is the breath of life...a combination of your paternal and maternal elements and the “God” factor. Everyone has this.
What seems to elude most people in their journey through life is the optional earth wire. This is the wire that keeps the socket grounded and prevents the entire appliance from being electrified and thus harming the user.
The Earth wire is your protector, it is what keeps you focused when everything seems to be crushing around you or when you seem to be losing yourself. It is your pivot, your constant reminder of who you are and why you are here.
Unfortunately, the most essential wire in the human circuit system like most modern day gadgets is not always present by default.
Many a men search their whole lives trying to find earth, that element that makes them whole, the morning star that navigates them home. Some find it in wealth, some find it in respect, some find it in elevated social status but the people that truly discover earth find it in another being.
I am no longer scared of what choices I have to make or what the end result would be. My spirit; my combination of live and neutral wires is a never-ending thirst to succeed in everything I do and indeed so has been the case so far. I know my spirit will drive me to the top of the world irrespective of what options I am presented with, but what will keep me there and my most valuable asset is Earth; my beloved Akua.
She is my constant source of self-discovery, my reminder of who I am and why I am here, my pivot and my reason to do what I do.
So I will no longer waste time brooding over what is lurking behind door number 1 or 2 but be patient toward all that is unsolved in my heart and try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms and like books that are written in a very foreign tongue. I will not now seek the answers, which cannot be given me because I would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. I will live the questions now, perhaps I will find them gradually, without noticing it, and live along some distant day into the answer. ~Rainer Maria Rilke